Tuesday, June 26, 2012
God Winks ;)
Had to get out of my own headspace for a while, I have been angry! Not just a little angry but very angry to the point of wanting to scream at the top of my lungs. It's just not fair! I think myself around in circles trying to reason things out in my head. I started reading a book titled, When God Winks at You, I have yet to finish it. Anyway,yesterday two people called completely out of the blue and they both said something along the lines of nothing is too big for God and He can change any situation. This was very helpful. Then this morning, I prayed that God would speak to me and show me what to do, I don't even know what to pray for anymore, sometimes I just sit in the silence and pray God knows what is in my heart. Anyway, God answered my prayers, better than I could have expected. That morning I received a package in the mail, my sweet and caring friend that I met in Columbus. She sent the kids 2 shirts and this wall hanging that says,"Do not fear, I am here with you always." Exactly what I needed. In that same mail I received a newsletter from an evangelist and basically said the same thing, "Do not fear." What a loving father we have, even in he midst of the craziness God is still with us and is right there bearing the pain with us. Having a child with special needs can be so draining at times but at the end of the day when Georgia cuddles with me and looks into my eyes all the worrying and anxiety of the future drains away. It is then I can feel God the most saying its all ok, I'm not going to leave you. I do not believe in coincidences anymore, it's a special wink from my Loving Father.