Wednesday, July 11, 2012
Let Go and Let God
As I am sure everyone knows, we are back in the hospital for shunt complications. Last week Sean and I were alone, for the first time since all this started happening with Georgia. We had just ourselves and it was hard. We thought all of this was behind us, but yesterday on our way to therapy Georgia started throwing up and then dry heaving. I panicked, I might not have done so but Georgia had been sleeping the greater part of yesterday. The exact same symptoms from last week. I called the doctor and he advised me to go to the ER or come to Orlando. I know last week that Georgia went down hill very fast so I did not want to take a chance of that happening this time. They did all the preliminary things they did last week and gave her some Zofran. Around 9:30 they told us they were going to admit her, they would watch her through the night and set a plan in the morning. God has really been working overtime and Georgia is feeling better today. Able to eat, play, and be her typical self. We were not going to tell anyone because it is hard for us to think about let alone everyone else. We just want to fade into the background. We want to move on with our lives, put this in a little box and put in he attic, something to discuss later in life but not to keep living. This week over and over again I have been reminded to trust in God, to keep my faith, and that nothing is impossible with God. God has been working over time on me, I believe it is my attitude that has brought this upon us. As much as I would love to wake up to Georgia talking and walking and being a "typical" child, I think that this is going to take time and a lot of work. God wants me to walk this path and I need to just start thinking positively and give Georgia the best life that she deserves. Hopefully this wil be the last time in the hospital, ever! She is responding to her name and she is making eye contact. I was reading about this child who had a hemi and gained 1.5 years of development within two months. That is very encouraging. I pray that this shunt will work properly and that her brain can recover and Georgia can start learning. I know this is going to take time. God has not forgotten us, he hasn't left us, He is holding us up. As I was reminded yesterday, God has enough faith in me to let me have her and I need to have enough faith in Him to let Him do His beautiful work. He is sure to complete this beautiful work and we will have a testimony. To fully appreciate the mountain tops I need to finish my stay in the valley. Thank you for all the prayers, Sean and I have felt them all around us and with comes a wonderful peace that surpasses all understanding.